Deceit

Wednesday, 18 July 2007

Pics on the verge of editing w the stupid fcukcok editor. will upload asap with details of 16th july o7's occasion and activity. stay tuned, lol :D

sch's getting more and more busy; sry to keep you guys waiting ):

Please come bk to my blog soon!!!! ^^

Friday, 13 July 2007

Errr, hi. Well, today wasn't a day for me... I cannot really explain the kinda feeling I'm having right now but it's very perplex and i don't even know...

Basically the day is alright for me, just tt i went to passed by celeste's blog... Didn't really read what she wrote but the things i saw tt made me having this weirdo feeling now...

Firstly i saw the word APmac, after tt i saw a pic of AP.. Gosh, isn't tt supposed to shrink my heart out? Well, i admit i hv alr moved on frm my past, but it's just tt when you had moved on, it doesn't mean tt you hv forgotten abt it.. Just like you can forgive someone, but cannot forget... So memories eventually flows back... But not the happy nor sad moments... Just moments when i can rmb I was in AP with him... I'm having a lil sour feeling right in my nose now... But i can't explain the feeling... Its weird. Many times i wonder if i really hv got over him or not... I felt he did let me down but come to think of it now, perharps i'm the one who let him down because I'm the one who left...

Seriously I know there's no definite answer to this and the only solution is for me to find out. I admit i'm just selfish, hence i nvr took the steps out to discover what my heart is really thinking. It's hard to explain... OR maybe it's the reality of material luxury... that's the only thing i can think of in my mind now...

I'm a sore loser in relationship. I ashamed but to say it. It's hard to be so strong. I'm still recalling every bits and bits of memories right now... It's all flashing up... But not those sweet moments... Just the moments when i cant let him go... I'm thinking, but i'm just thinking... No other thoughts, no other intention... Just took out the memories to recall, but it's okay...
I have moved on...
And now, 5 minutes of thinking the memories are up. Let me stop the thoughts.

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Adriano got a new gf alr, pretty... yep, pretty. GRRRR.
lol, wish him all the best ! ...
thou i feel jealous.. haha! x)

I'm yearning for that wallet.... That wallet... I got no wallet.. i want tt wallet.....

I'm feeling real booooooo because my audition cannot play agn. Ytd was fine what Zzzzzzz.
Hais.. This sucks.

Tuesday, 10 July 2007

Okay, I'm starting off with FIRE now. I'm fcuking pissed off. OMG can someone tell me if it's my fault or i'm just SUEY huh? Please la, kiddy and absolute childish matters please don't invole me, makes me look like an idiot wearing donkey cap or what. Zzzzz. PLEASE!

whalau, yea la, earlier on this evening i sat beside tt %&$#@ Ralph. So what? C'mon la, a girl sitting beside a boy during lesson is NOT EQUAL to flirt. HOHOHOHOHOHO, tt's a big hilarious joke. Further more i think i will choose before i flirt, don't I??? Fcuking nonsense. And please la, your famous past, who donooo? Ralph knows even more than i do. What's wrong saying it.... You claim to say tt this will affect your relationships with him... Okay, fine....

1) if you got nth to hide, there's nth to be scared of.
2) even if so, it's alr the past. why should the guy cares so much abt it???
3)check the fact out right, things we said were only casual remarks, AND tt we were talking abt the other party, the guy ... OMG . He even knew it more than me. What is there to hide????

And don implicate me into these. I feel like a dumass man...
Don't make me involve into things like this... In the end i'm the demon who brk ups ppl's relationship. Zzz.

If a relationship is strong enough, all these wouldn't had happened.
COMMON SENSE.

And Ralph, please handle it well ley. It's fcuking irritating can.
Teach your gf.

OMG I'M DAMN PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW.
things aren't supposed to be like this.

And Ralph he fcuking STUPID. What should i call him? BRAINLESS???
he went to tell that EASILY JEALOUS lady he flirt with me.
WTH?!! Since when i flirt with tt brainless? OMG.

Does chatting with a classmate with opposite sex means FLIRTING?
I guess everyone flirts everyday then.
KNNBCCBPCB. I can't stand all this fcuking nonsence.
Cos' i hate feeling i'm the bitch there....
When the person themselves are my friends.

FUNNY RIGHT?!
sibey suey. feel so cursed lor.

HURHURHUR. i flirt with RALPH.
NICOLE TERESA i flirt with him siol.
YOU BELIEVE MA???

Logics ok c'mon.
I hate girls who don't think and gets easily paranoid over these kinda stuffs.
GOSH.

Wash brian... whatever you can....

I shouldn't be feeling guilty but now you are making me feel so....
HUR!
good huh, making ppl feel that way... .. now what?
should i say soli soli and hope you and him don quarrel liao... ..?
kao. NONSENCE!
And this isn't the first time alr fyi.
I'm getting real fed-up. i can't stand these. CCB.

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