The so called 'most-popular-team' @ BT. ahhahaha(:

Me & Eza, again..

And then... Some of me canwhore peeks. like after 1month... STOP ME!! hahahaha..

Ok gtg, ciao.

No, I'm not feeling any better..

Last day with TeamE.

Ex-mentor & me being checked in. He's teasing me short.

EZA!!!

Best working together. I miss you guys. SIGH!

P/s: My heart is dead.

Sssssup. Baby sent me to work today cos I woke up late. less than 30 mins journey to work in his car I can also fall into my lala land. He's picking me up from work too! Sweet or what. hehs.

Time spent at work has overtaken my time with him. But then again I thank god for giving me this job even at this hard times. Well, what else more can I ask for. Happy colleagues, I'm happy!

Many things to buy ley. Trackmill, dslr (Probably get canon d1000), hp, desktops.. Whaoooos. I'm so greedy.

Anyways. I'm up by 1.0KG! (CB___) I need my trackmill FAST. Finally, like at least finally.. 3 pics from work. HEHE.

During my gate duties.

Me and Hellokitty. hahahah. Pardon my V.CUI face. (FUGGG NEWYORK!)

Me and Joanne(:

That's it. More for me to go. JY!

Don't be sad at what you had done to yourself.


Raining heavily now! Just like how my heart is now. haha, sounds so emo...

I'll give you all the freedom you wanted. And then I did it. Do you like it? (: Cheers.


I am working again! Baby said he wanted to bring me to watch Transformers but until now I am still waiting. Fat liar.
Finally transferred my new york to Civic Centre. AHHHHH! Pissed off talking about new york. When is my face going to recover???

I committed another sin today. I ate Macdonald for breakfast. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! ): ):

i broke my record. More than a month since I touch my cosmetics. Unbelievable! Spell me madness. I broke one more record by working almost 3 weeks without off. Who can beat my workaholic-ness? Haha..

I don't want to talk more about my problems here. It's better to be left unsaid sometimes. No point trying to elaborate when it will not make any difference. I did try to be ignorant of all these pains, yet you know you can't avoid. What's all the materials when you know it's just a lie to cover up the sadness. I know I am not happy. I will not pretend I'm happy, but i will choose to forget that i'm not happy.
Like I said, I wish I have amnesia.. Now you know why.

Gotten my new specs geeees. No difference from the previous one la, except that it's Levi's? And then... next month my pay shall goes to TRACKMILL! fcuking excited :D



P/s: i miss you Yanling, Yencheng and also Ahlian Ong! meet up one day please! I need a listening ear, a leaning shoulder, a pillar of strength to make me move on.............

Try

All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try
All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
Free In our love
We are free in our love



Truly defines how i feel right now..

Feeling: isolated.





The good o' times.





If only we can turn back the time I'd freeze it & never let it go.
Now? You made me speechless. Please stop saying you love when it just don't seems so. if you know what i mean.

Don't fall in love.

enough said. what said still remains unsaid. let's bet. eveverything will not be the same again. we shall see.

I want to go overseas alone, I wanna leave this miserable place.

LEAVE ME ALONE. PLEASE. GIVE ME A BREAK. STOP MAKING ME SUFFER. PLEASE..

2 months.. I guess.. Since I took photo of me.. I broke my record! MAN! How could this be. Lol.





P/s: I guess I will get used to this new life. And I think I don't love you so much as before anymore (:

What should i write?

I am not posting any of my zi-lian photos for so long alr. When is my face going to get better... Damn. Fcuk all the beauty regime - ain't working. Fcuk New York, fcuk you! I thought that i look better before I started. Cheater.

Baby boy is so cute yesterday. We went Ikea for a walk and I was saying that I wanted to get a new bed frame since my bro's has broken. I was just casually saying that I thought that a Queen Size one would be good, and I can share with my bro tgt. Immediately - like really immediately, he said "NO". Haha, so agitated and silly.

I'm not feeling well now. Shiat. I think it's flu tho. SHIAT. And I realise I'm working at the airport. SSSHIATTT.


I know you are not excited about gg overseas. I'm not stupid. Anyway, like I said and promised, I won't bother anymore. And when I said it, I will mean it.

Hands and feets are being chilled now. Ain't concentrating. Thousands of thoughts whirling in my mind now. Ain't feeling any better.

PMS suck. I suffer from crying syndrom. Need L-Eryptophan or 5-HTP to cure my emotions.

Yet sometimes I must agree that PMS thoughts are realistic.

Hate being myself. Nothing about me wins your heart. You told me I'm too strong in personality, you don't like it this way. You told me Huai Kuan's gf commented me about my personality as Fierce. I wonder why you should take people's words in it. It may be my past that hinders you but if you love me you should accept my past. I realise that your life is not fitted for people like me to enter. I may be too tough at times but c'mon i'm still a girl I have times when I'm weak. Why do guys simply loves girl who always seemed so weak and needed protection - and then only they will secure their girl? What's so good about a girl behaving so cowardly and what's the matter with people thinking that guys should always be of a higher position than girls? why?

I did try to go along with your ways but i will have times when i can't take it anymore too. I really really really regretted telling you yesterday night about how i felt being with your family.

Now I wonder how i am going to face your family.. I always told myself that it doesn't matter how your family treats or think of me but somehow i know i'm just deceiving myself that i don't bother. I know I should whine that much but you weren't in my shoe so you wouldn't know. It's suffocating to hide all my sorrows to myself and only cry out my pain to realise that I will swallow it back in the end. Never I have a chance to really let you undestand what i'm going through because your egoistic have already conquered my courage and I'm left with nothing but just to tell myself to have taken it lightly. I know that life isn't always perfect but I still lingered for a bit of hope that sometimes what i wished for will come through. All the bit and pieces we have gone through together still failed to even make our relationship abit stronger.

From the first time when you met me, you told me how I should respect myself and leave a guy who isn't worth my love. you told me i should deserve someone better and that you nominated yourself to be the person who will be worth my love. yet now you are telling me that i am acting too tough for you and you can't take the way I am. I should have told myself and believed that words are always a mask of all actions. I should have believe that humans are all selfish and we only do things that is beneficial for own self. Yet I chose to go against the reality, graping a glimpse of hope that miracle will happen. I'm sucha clown. I should have known.

I know I'm a very bad girlfriend, but little little things that I've done you've not seen it too. I know that you had sacrificed alot for me as well but honestly sometimes you just sacrificed the wrong thing. I have times when I'm mean, when I'm bad but I hope that you will be kind enough to let go. Yet your heart of vengence is so strong even my apology is dissolved by your strong power of vengence.

I can only said I've tried.

And I can only tell myself now that I should have taken things lightly.

I would have been fine.

I will be fine.

The longest journey you will ever take is the 18 inches from your head to your heart.



Tmr is the 3rd Saturday for me. Wonder how far my achievement will be.. still more to go. Really never easy. Mind over body I should say.


I almost died just now pulling system for gate duties from gate 9 to gate 4 which takes 5 mins to reach from one point to another. Thanks to the inconsiderate staffs who left it there for me to die. Thankfully there wasn't any delay.
Yap, Firefly Airline's opening ceremony today. The spotlights are hurting my eyes. 80 seaters. But they travel to Malacca. Can bring my fam over and introduce my bad boyfriend to my relatives. Ha.


Realised that taking things seriously ain't going to help. So I have decided to step down. I'm getting some kind of emo blonde hair sometimes now or later. And then my minachi scent will reveal muahahhaha. I like.


My locker smells so super nice now. Thanks to Glade.

just ignore me..

yo ssup. the night before, went 'swimming' with my baby. That wasn't swimming tho. That was playing with water. The pool was so freaking cold baby just stood still stiffly. We were literally standing in the pool and chatting for like 45mins and went out of the pool only bottom wet. ha, that was shame.

I'm seriously desperate to color up my hair sak! cool. keep goggling those images but don't suits my skin tone. Disaster. Awwwwww.

Don't shock. Ciaozzzzzz.

RONALD'S MACDONALD'S GARLIC CHILLI SAUCE IS BACK!



Hence i commited a sin by eating 2 french fries.