Deceit

It's so typical to say that
LOVE HURTS.


Yet it's still so meaningful even till very now.
I really don't like to fall in love because you know when you fall, it takes time to heal.

I don't like happiness. Because you know the happier you are, the more you fear of losing the happiness.

I don't like to smile. Becasue right now the more i smile, the more i will cry..

I'm falling down..



Many times I told myself I'm strong enough to let go. Yet I know it's an uphill struggle to have the courage letting go of something you have always been holding on to. I know there's such a word call 'obstacles', yet i choose to believe that it doesn't exist and always told myself that i can overcome any challenge that gonna break my way of living life my way.

I know that many times things just don't go your own way. Yet i'm still wishing and dreaming every single day that things will get better.

but no, i'm not happy.


You can gimme all the freedom I want, But i will never be happy. Never...