Deceit

Listening to music as memories flows back and keep ligering in my mind. Emotional songs suck.

I slept at 1o am tdy ; hvn had a wink since ytd and woke up at 7pm. I seemed to be working night life - with my laptop.
Before i cuddle in my bed, i got my breakfast so i can sleep without nightmares i hoped. My mom bought a wholemeal bread home. My last time since i ate a wholemeal bread was in Primay 1, i remember. My whole family hates wholemeal bread. This time round, it makes no difference, bought the wrong bread.
As i stuffed the bread into my mouth i rememebered when i was in primary 1, My form teacher, Mrs Buay prepared a sandwich made by wholemeal bread during Children's Day. Surprisingly i still remember the taste till now. However this time, the wholemeal bread i ate totally SUCK. Maybe my taste changes over a decade, or the bread really sucks... or maybe it's the love from her tt melts my heart....

I realise i hvn been mopping for guys since the last guy there. It actually calls for a celebration but i really I'm feeling blue because I'm stuck with my own feeling, i don't know how i really feel. I cant feel my heart, whether it's true or not. Maybe feeling this way is better ... then being heartbroken and being cheated times and again.

Had only a stick today, because i woke up late. Every 5mins of the sticks i always prayed it will burn all the calories awy. Hopefully it does - Nicotine is always true to me. Never lies and my companion for all the times I'm loney, thou it look really UGLY but it always perish but with a back up for me.

I wish my life can be better, with tons and tons of money but some how, reality bites. You'll realise you are so carefree with anything and everything you want but realise You are in bed .... from a dream. haa - reality ...........