Deceit

Another meaningless day for me as i spent my day eating which only makes me fat. I looked at my laptop meaninglessly and screened blogs and friendster. I saw Angie's friendster and Songting's blog which make me feel really happy for them thou. They have a v wonderful guy beside them and they seems like they gonna be happy forever.

Looking at those photos i was filled with envy and envy. Those photos really tempted me into having such a lovely relationships too and having able to cuddle myself into my lovable guy's arms taking sweet photos for people to envy like how i'm envying others'. But thinking tt i hv to go thru the pain and thorns frm the bed of roses freaks me out. I think i'm getting paranoid again, i don't understand why i will de-trust things or people tt easily. I ain't wanna lose out, so i guess i got to stay like this.
The photos may look lovely, but photos are deceiving. You only get to see the beautiful side, and the ugly side is always hidden. I'm not trying to say tt my friends' photos deceive me. It's just tt the negative part of story in love is always hidden.

Well, see this article. you need not read it all. It's just an extract from a Britain newspaper website:
(you may read the embolded text i draw)

'My split with Britney left me heartbroken'
Last Updated: 12:01am BST 17/09/2002
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Boy band star Justin Timberlake is emerging from Britney Spears's shadow - but can he succeed on his own? Bryony Gordon finds out
It takes two PR executives, one musical director and a very large bodyguard to protect Justin Timberlake from just two words: Britney Spears. In the living room of the bungalow in Los Angeles where we meet, the members of Timberlake's entourage shuffle in their seats and stare at the floor whenever the conversation strays away from "the music". Timberlake is here to discuss his debut solo album, Justified, and it's clear that this is the only subject that his "people" want us to talk about.

With Britney before the break
Unfortunately, for Timberlake, the British public have so far been less interested in his creative endeavours (even though he is one fifth of America's biggest boy-band of the moment, *NSync) than his romantic life: and, in particular, the fact that he is the man who dated the princess of pop (and self-proclaimed virgin), Britney Spears, for three years, before their break-up six months ago.
Until now, almost everything that has been written in the British press about the 21-year-old from Tennessee has been a reference to his (more famous) ex-girlfriend. We know that he had his first taste of celebrity at the age of 12 as a "Mouseketeer" on the children's television show The Mickey Mouse Club; he starred alongside Britney, and they shared their first kiss on the programme. We know that Britney once supported *NSync on tour, and that they performed together at last year's Superbowl.
In fact, most of what has been written about Timberlake in Britain has been tabloid speculation over whether he broke Britney's no-sex-before-marriage pledge.
And, really, that isn't all that fair. Because Timberlake is already hugely successful in his own right. Last year, Rolling Stone magazine described *NSync as "the biggest band in the world". Their second album, No Strings Attached, set a record for the most copies sold in a single week - 2.4 million. The follow-up, Celebrity, sold 3.3 million copies in its first three weeks of release. The band have appeared on The Simpsons and on Sesame Street, which are both indicators of an advanced level of fame.
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But despite his impressive CV, Timberlake has, until now, been unable to step out of Britney's shadow. Finally, it seems that is about to change. With the release of Justified, he could very well leave poor Britney trailing in his wake. I was treated to an early playback of the album in an LA recording studio last week, where several journalists had assembled. One emotional music critic observed that we were "listening to the album that Michael Jackson should have made".



Picture of JT and BS before their brk ups.


See, Now Britney is a mother - where Justin Timberlake got nth to do w the kids. haa, showbiz's reality huh.







well ...

Played w my webcam agn. haa -






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Maybe I'm beginning to understand what my heart is feeling alr. It's telling me that sometimes you just got to be true to yourself and everyone else. Life is such a bitch. I wonder why ... ...