Deceit

Long time since I really blogged ever since my overseas trip. Been too lazy to blog but rather I decide to private it so I can actually diary out my thoughts.

Maybe my tumblr blog will be the one I can simply utter some nonsenses in cos' since it can't be private anyway. Laughs <3

What happened most lately was of cos, the puppy incident. I was really disappointed with those people backfiring their words. Seriously am having some racists actions towards indians after that.

But then again it was a good thing in return tho, because I got a cute puppy in return (: We after which decided not to name her Cookie because it makes us think of that incident. Hence we had name our new and FIRST puppy Pomeranian COCO ONG! Isn't that sweet? The name was after many test, opinion, suggestions, interview and approval that everyone was satisfied with.

Linsheng even created a lil bloggie for her. That was like so sweet la! Silly boy (:

Well she's only 1 month old! So super tiny, only the size of like... two horizontal palms? Has decided to put my love all on her.. since I have so much of it hahaha.

Today Aps called me regarding my job and asked me to join back to them and continue working there as a part timer. I agreed. But now I kinda regret it tho because I thought I wanted to make a better future and then why am i agreeing to go back to them?

Exactly. I'm so stupid. I should look forward and then start anew. I was actually afraid to start new roads of my life because I'm afraid of failure. I don't know why too. Thinking of going school for courses next year terrified me as well because I don't have any idea where to get the money to start my schooling as well as my determination..

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Stress about how I'm going back to school, about what new job that will suits my lifestyle.. stress about every thing...

sometimes, I seriously thought of leaving Singapore, staying in a isolated area where no one knows me, and just simply stay there...

Sometimes it just hurts thinking of reality.... No wonder when you are young, you always hear adults saying things like "sometimes i wish I'm a kid, no worries.." So now I finally figure out this sentence..