Deceit

Errr, hi. Well, today wasn't a day for me... I cannot really explain the kinda feeling I'm having right now but it's very perplex and i don't even know...

Basically the day is alright for me, just tt i went to passed by celeste's blog... Didn't really read what she wrote but the things i saw tt made me having this weirdo feeling now...

Firstly i saw the word APmac, after tt i saw a pic of AP.. Gosh, isn't tt supposed to shrink my heart out? Well, i admit i hv alr moved on frm my past, but it's just tt when you had moved on, it doesn't mean tt you hv forgotten abt it.. Just like you can forgive someone, but cannot forget... So memories eventually flows back... But not the happy nor sad moments... Just moments when i can rmb I was in AP with him... I'm having a lil sour feeling right in my nose now... But i can't explain the feeling... Its weird. Many times i wonder if i really hv got over him or not... I felt he did let me down but come to think of it now, perharps i'm the one who let him down because I'm the one who left...

Seriously I know there's no definite answer to this and the only solution is for me to find out. I admit i'm just selfish, hence i nvr took the steps out to discover what my heart is really thinking. It's hard to explain... OR maybe it's the reality of material luxury... that's the only thing i can think of in my mind now...

I'm a sore loser in relationship. I ashamed but to say it. It's hard to be so strong. I'm still recalling every bits and bits of memories right now... It's all flashing up... But not those sweet moments... Just the moments when i cant let him go... I'm thinking, but i'm just thinking... No other thoughts, no other intention... Just took out the memories to recall, but it's okay...
I have moved on...
And now, 5 minutes of thinking the memories are up. Let me stop the thoughts.


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Adriano got a new gf alr, pretty... yep, pretty. GRRRR.
lol, wish him all the best ! ...
thou i feel jealous.. haha! x)


I'm yearning for that wallet.... That wallet... I got no wallet.. i want tt wallet.....



I'm feeling real booooooo because my audition cannot play agn. Ytd was fine what Zzzzzzz.
Hais.. This sucks.