Deceit

life's been changing for me lately. Finally, i'm freed and free from love [:
i finally get to know the meaning of freedom, how to DOMINATE guys and to call the shots. somehow i realise that guys are so fortunate to call the shots everytime. Now with me it's different, because i'm gg to change the world *whhahaha*

VIVA LA JIAHUI ! x]
i finally know tt without love, one still can go on with their MEANINGFUL life like it is. But with a good guy to be with you, it's often better...

i broke up with him ytd. i don't love him. or maybe before. or just infatuation. i know i can no longer be with him. cos i'm lying to him, ironically i'm lying to myself. i shouldn't be so naive thinking tt feelings will eventually develop as time passes. This is a NO-NO quote or life-inspiration. Feelings can only develop when god says " yes, i shall ask my lovely cupid to shoot the arrow at the two of you ... "

Ain't i true? i find out that life is often so fated. SO SO SO destined tt you will find it so surprised.
guess wad, i went to the largest website search engine YAHOO.COM, as in w-o-r-l-d-w-i-d-e kinda, out of hundreds and hundreds of related search result, i found my lover's ex'x blogsite. at tt point of time, my heart really dropped.
God knows why i feel tt way. i was really clueless. i admit feelings for him still exists, but ...

he told me that there's only a 5o-5o possiblity of being bk tgt agn. it's all a gamble for me. It's either i got all, or nothing at all..

maybe god wants it this way, maybe i chose the road and walked till this way. But there's no point of turning back. i can only look ahead. plan for the future. and be independent.


Focusing and totally into my studies for my Olvl right now. Don't wish anything to affect emotions and ended up losing focus on studies ; and everything i work so hard for.

they say, " you reap what you sow "
try beating the person who says this. cos the world is unfair. you nvr get to see the equal side in this selfish earth...

i knw you are reading this. neh, you lor x=
you are dammit readin it!
i wanted to change the photos but the other one look totally DISGUSTING UGLY, AWLFUL & HORRIBLE~
remember i'm always here.








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always! :D