i went to see her blog again. i found that web by a quarter of memories i could recall but forgotten her web address again right after i close her web's window.

Maybe it's a wrong wrong choice that i went to view again out of anxiety and curiousity. But it's like meant to be, i still manage to find it. Fated even more, manage to forget the add and etc. If everything's so easy to remember and to forget..
Thou there's wasn't anything specific in her blog that's sensitive to him, it still melt my heart - in a painful way. I mean, it's like.. the feeling when you feel that your heart dropped to your stomach. And that no other painkillers can stop the pain. I try being optimistic as far as possible but limits still reach within a small while. Sometimes, you feel you couldn't take it anymore, you don't want to know the sad things anymore, but, you still wanto know the truth.. funny, har.

Relationship is the WEIRDEST thing god ever created. i'm puzzled..well..

My hearts still linger around, ain't any idea where to head off. My hearts itch when he MIA. i feel that i'm getting mentally-weaker. He really fills my mind.
JTJW : you just mean so much to me. You just don't know. You can't feel it, and you can't feel me. Our feelings are still the same.
remember, i wait...

My friend got this sms and i really finds it meaningful to the core.
Here's the VALUE OF WOMEN:
This couldn't be said more beautifully...

Becareful if you make a woman cry,
because God counts her tears.
A woman came out of a mans' rib.
Not from his feet to walked on,
not from his head to be superior over,
but from his side to be equal.
Under the arm to be protected,
and next to the heart to be loved...

i believe that womans are to be loved. heh. PLEASE LA, LOVE ME LEY =x

To add on, i always belief that good things will never last. But i still belief that every cloud have a silver lining. So i'll PERSEVERE till the end.
never give up - the old old yet so motivating pharse.


i gotten pics frm my 'boy' and tons to admire of. memories flows back like it's still happening..




















and the photos tt bring me back to the past, not long ago...




bugis trip with him,




sometimes... we can only taste the past, be it bitter, sweet or sour...




trip to ktv with my clique of girls.




I got a cutie my mom babysits. taking care of her since she was a lil baby till now, who's turning 2yrs old [:











She is the one who brighten and fill my day at home.


Over these few years have been alot of twists and turns. There's so many turning points over these times. I wonder how i passed my life and PHEW* - i'm turining 17 in 3days' time. awwww* the time really passes and rots...










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You will be my baby always. PROMISE.
the unforgettable 151oo5.

life's been changing for me lately. Finally, i'm freed and free from love [:
i finally get to know the meaning of freedom, how to DOMINATE guys and to call the shots. somehow i realise that guys are so fortunate to call the shots everytime. Now with me it's different, because i'm gg to change the world *whhahaha*

VIVA LA JIAHUI ! x]
i finally know tt without love, one still can go on with their MEANINGFUL life like it is. But with a good guy to be with you, it's often better...

i broke up with him ytd. i don't love him. or maybe before. or just infatuation. i know i can no longer be with him. cos i'm lying to him, ironically i'm lying to myself. i shouldn't be so naive thinking tt feelings will eventually develop as time passes. This is a NO-NO quote or life-inspiration. Feelings can only develop when god says " yes, i shall ask my lovely cupid to shoot the arrow at the two of you ... "

Ain't i true? i find out that life is often so fated. SO SO SO destined tt you will find it so surprised.
guess wad, i went to the largest website search engine YAHOO.COM, as in w-o-r-l-d-w-i-d-e kinda, out of hundreds and hundreds of related search result, i found my lover's ex'x blogsite. at tt point of time, my heart really dropped.
God knows why i feel tt way. i was really clueless. i admit feelings for him still exists, but ...

he told me that there's only a 5o-5o possiblity of being bk tgt agn. it's all a gamble for me. It's either i got all, or nothing at all..

maybe god wants it this way, maybe i chose the road and walked till this way. But there's no point of turning back. i can only look ahead. plan for the future. and be independent.


Focusing and totally into my studies for my Olvl right now. Don't wish anything to affect emotions and ended up losing focus on studies ; and everything i work so hard for.

they say, " you reap what you sow "
try beating the person who says this. cos the world is unfair. you nvr get to see the equal side in this selfish earth...

i knw you are reading this. neh, you lor x=
you are dammit readin it!
i wanted to change the photos but the other one look totally DISGUSTING UGLY, AWLFUL & HORRIBLE~
remember i'm always here.








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always! :D